>Today has been another day of failure, binged and purged twice. I don’t understand how I could have lost control so quickly. I feel so angry at myself for being so weak and useless.
Self harm has also been bad, I am really not coping well, but there is nothing I can really do, I am too tired to fight it at the moment.
You shouldn’t have to fight to want to be alive, living is something that you should automatically want.