>Massive binge

03 Sep

>I feel so disgusted with myself, I had probably the biggest binge I have had in a long time this evening, it was awful, I just ate and ate and ate. Obviously purged after, but I am so cross that I can’t be stronger than that. I really do not want to be getting back into daily binging again.

I spent some time with my parents this afternoon, they don’t think it is good for me staying in all of the time, so have been keeping on for days, so eventually today I agreed to go to town with them. I didn’t feel as anxious as I thought I would, except for in one shop, but I think that was due to the lighting in that particular shop. For some reason my anxiety and panic attacks can be very triggered by some shops lighting, especially if it is flickering slightly. I have no idea why, but I now have some shops that I no longer even attempt to go in.

I feel so big and disgusting after that awful binging and purging session earlier, I hate this feeling.


Posted by on 03/09/2010 in Uncategorized


2 responses to “>Massive binge

  1. LosingIt

    03/09/2010 at 11:12 pm

    >You're not alone, we all hate it too :(But even though you didn't succeed in that area the fact that you managed to go to town is a positive :)Very proud and nice work !xoxo

  2. Scarred

    04/09/2010 at 1:25 pm

    >I'm agrophobic, well its not diagnosed but not leaving the house for weeks on end is what I end up doing. I suppose it might come under some of the other labels I have been given. I do understand how being in shops can make you panic, its good that you did get out with your parents.I hate the feeling after a binge too, *hugs*


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