>I am not doing to good at the moment. I am feeling very low and tearful, I have felt very exhausted the last few days and basic things seem to be taking their toll on me. We all no what the problem is though, this is all the result of anorexia, my BMI is extremely low, but a huge part of me doesn’t even want to try and fight it any more, I would be happy to keep going until I fade away to nothing. I have had a lower BMI before, a few years ago, but I am physically weaker this time, my body isn’t as resilient as it used to be.
I feel embarrassed by my body, I look tired, I have started losing hair again, I look a wreck to be honest. I am too embarrassed to make YouTube videos, which is something I normally enjoy.
Why don’t you eat more is the question you are probably wanting to ask, well that’s anorexia for you, I have been here before, I still have the damage to my body, I know what I am doing to myself, but I no longer care.
Psychologist on Friday, I promised myself that I was going to be more honest with her, but that was when I wanted to get better, I don’t any more.