>So in my last post I was upset as I had badly binged that day, well that day turned into 6 long days of solid binging. I am mortified, this has never happened to me before, in all of my years of suffering from anorexia and bulimia, I have never gone a massive long binge like this, there was no distinction between binges apart from breaks for sleeping and purging. It was like my body was on this roller coaster and there was no way to stop it. I don’t really remember much about it, I no that sounds a bit weird, but it felt like my brain was switched off and my body was running itself. I actually do think it was like some sort of instinct, a survival instinct I guess.
But it is over now, I woke up this morning and before even getting out of bed I new it was over, I woke up knowing that today I would stick to under 200 calories and that it wouldn’t be a problem. I have had no thoughts of binging, no drive to eat anything other than what I had planned. So I am guessing my body has got what it so badly required and is happy to once again leave me to get on with things.
So what is the damage weight wise, well my BMI is no longer under 15, logically I no this is a good thing, but the anorexic part of me sees this as a challenge, the challenge of course is to see how quickly I can get it back to what is was, how quickly I can undo the damage that my 6 day long binge has done.