No where to run

23 Nov

Today I had my assessment for joining the year long waiting list for DBT in the community, it was something I was dreading as a few years ago when I had the same assessment I was told I wasn’t suitable due to being unable to speak & express my thoughts & feelings etc. so the pressure was on to get it right this time.

Well they haven’t officially said no yet,they are going to write to me,but they as good as said no.They said that I would be to much of a risk as my self harm is so out of control & trying to get me to stop it would likely increase to it getting worse & more dangerous,which they couldn’t risk.

Yesterday was the funding panel meeting,my CPN went to present my case for funding for specialist inpatient DBT,she stopped me on my way out of my assessment & took me into a room to tell me how that went,well she didn’t seem all that possitive at all,she said at least my name is out there now so if we re apply in the future my case in known,but that the funding panel were unable to make a decision as there were not enough members present due to sickness.

So where the bloody hell does that leave me?


Posted by on 23/11/2011 in Uncategorized


7 responses to “No where to run

  1. michaelpaoli

    23/11/2011 at 4:45 pm

    Use and leverage, to fullest useful advantage, what you do have and do have access to.
    Don’t make or let your recovery wait for that which you don’t – or don’t presently, have or have access to.
    It’s your life. Take charge of and responsibility for it – at least as much as you can.
    Don’t wait for folk(s) to come and “rescue” you … they may not come, or may fail to come some day.

  2. geo

    23/11/2011 at 5:01 pm

    In all kinds of shit

    • Dawny

      23/11/2011 at 5:31 pm

      Really helpful comment geo !!!!

  3. Dawny

    23/11/2011 at 5:36 pm


    Jeezuz how frustrating!!!!!! Only thing you can cling to is the funding panel haven’t decided!!!

    All off sick …. Ha would be almost funny if it wasn’t so bloody serious!!

    Don’t give up …..

  4. Nigel

    23/11/2011 at 7:19 pm

    Hi Amy,

    They said that I would be to much of a risk as my self harm is so out of control & trying to get me to stop it would likely increase to it getting worse & more dangerous, which they couldn’t risk.

    In a way that maybe true, but only because they’re sooo missing the point.

    If a person has a broken leg and you take away their crutch, what happens? They stumble and fall. They cannot function until they regain it, or find an alternative crutch, and that might be more unsuitable than their old one.

    However unhelpful this SH may be, it’s serving some sort of purpose. It’s like a crutch to help you cope, only this time it’s coping with emotional rather than physical difficulties.

    ‘They’ shouldn’t simply be getting you to stop; what they should be doing is helping you understand the reasons that lie behind the behaviour. And they should be helping you find more appropriate ways of responding to and coping with those thoughts and situations. That way the SH would start to diminish because there would no longer be a need for it.

    We all need ways to cope, and it doesn’t help to try to take those ways away without investigating alternatives. Failing to do so will only see those ways return, or a new and possibly more harmful ways take its place.

    Anyway, it still sounds like there’s some hope yet, and I hope you get the care you deserve. I’m guessing a bit at what’s possibly going through your mind, but if I’m right, it isn’t necessary. To me, at least, it does make sense in a kind or twisted way, but at the same time it just causes more problems. So do what you can to resist the temptation Amy, you can do it!

    Take care,

  5. Mel

    23/11/2011 at 9:14 pm

    Amy ❤

    I don't know what to say, except please don't give up. Too many people care about you.

    Lots of love xxx

  6. Charlene

    25/11/2011 at 6:59 am

    Hi Amy,
    As an ex-selfharmer I just want to say, don’t give up! It can get better!!! Just keep holding on to something positive – family, friends whatever, because that is what you need to drag yourself up.

    Charlene xxxx


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