26 Feb

This morning I was taken to A&E to get my retention sorted, by the time I got seen I was in acute retention. I required a catheter, IV fluids, IV painkillers and antibiotics. Now as far as I am concerned it should never have got to that point, I told them last night I was in retention, after not peeing all day, I am on a 1:1 they had watched me struggle to pee all day. I was denied water last night because I wouldn’t drink my 10pm milk. I NEEDED WATER.

Any ways I am back at the unit having had my catheter removed, I have a course of antibiotics to complete, I have told them I NEED more water, but so far that hasn’t happened, the milk argument will start in 20 mins.

Earlier I got myself in such a state that I put my coat and shoes on and asked to go out, much to the horror of my male 1:1 nurse, any ways after lots of arguing and tears they said if I insisted on leaving I would be sectioned. Now I came here as a voluntary patient, I have learnt the hard way to avoid sectioning at all costs, so once I calmed down I went back to my bed, had a bloody good cry, phoned my Dad and cried some more, had a hug from my room mate and cried even more. I have been asking for PRN in 7pm and nothing, I am not in a good way at all mentally. I feel like nobody is listening to me at all.

I have my ward round tomorrow, things had better improve after that, other wise I have no idea how I am going to cope.


Posted by on 26/02/2012 in Uncategorized


6 responses to “Relief

  1. Samantha

    26/02/2012 at 9:55 pm

    Good luck with your stay there, because they are not really good!! But you can writes to me ^_^ Hope your bladder is ok after the cather, I have a permanent catheter 😦

    • tinyratty

      26/02/2012 at 10:02 pm

      Thanks 🙂 yeah I am normally al right after a few hours with the catheter, only once have I had to have it put back in for longer. I just need to keep peeing regularly, there for keep well hydrated. That must be awful having a permanent catheter, I struggle with them for just a few hours,xxx

  2. gaynor

    26/02/2012 at 11:08 pm

    do not believe the threats they tell you amy about sectioning, the grounds on which you can be sectioned have been changed, also 3 independant doctors have to agree to it, sectioning is not has easy has it used to be.

    I know you want support and empathy, I do support and empathise, but on the other hand a lot of this is about control, you wanted specialist in-patient treatment, it is not like being on a psyc ward, there are strict rules, fighting the rules constantly will not work, the milk argument, had you drank the milk you would of also got water, no milk, no water.

    Yes I know what you said about milk, have you ever had to drink charcoal, not at all pleasant and lots of it is required. You are not medically allergic to the milk, drink it, you are not working with the programme but against it, they say you cant go out, you argue, they say you must drink milk you argue, you want PRN but don’t get it you argue.

    Your ED and BPD are making you react like this, but these specialist units are there to break old cycles, teach you knew ones, but its done their way, a tried and tested one, you once said you would do anything to recover and get the help you need, but you will not drink a glass of milk.

    I know you follow Jack Marshall and his family, you say what an inspiration they are to you, do you think Jack would of refused the milk, I dont, Harry Moseley would of drank the milk.

    Yes i am giving you a hard time, but because I care, this is your last chance saloon Amy, some of your friends find your arguments and fights with staff funny, i just see chances being thrown away.

    I believe in you Amy and I truly think a lot about you, i’m not saying this to piss you off or hurt you,

    • tinyratty

      27/02/2012 at 12:20 pm

      Hi, I can see a lot of what you are saying,l but the milk things isn’t a case of I can just down it in one and make everyone happy, I hate it that much, believe me with all the stress that has gone on around the milk I would drink it if I could.

      See next post for more of an explanation,x

  3. Judith

    27/02/2012 at 6:41 am

    Hi Amy,
    perhaps it might help if your parents or some other close relative confirm that you have always hated milk and get sick if you drink it?
    Well, I am afraid that they think that you do not want to drink milk because you are afraid of the calories in it. I hate it and it makes me so angry when staff/therapists do not believe what their patient/client says.
    Have you spoken to the dietrician yet? Perhaps you could make a deal with the staff- like substitude milk with something similar (yoghurt?), more cheese or something liquid with more calories than water (whey with juice, yoghurt drink, cacoa, coke,…)?
    Because not drinking enough can lead to further problems with your instetines and bladder as you unfortunately had to experience.
    Big hugs, Judith
    PS: I will write to you soon.

  4. Jemma hervin

    27/02/2012 at 11:22 am

    Hey hun, glad you got sorted but what a palaver :/
    Try to work with them my lovely, you will settle in soon but like someone else said it’s not gonna be easy, this is all classic stuff, you will come out the other side.

    Now I know you like hot chocolate so could you have a milky one of those instead? I’m not keen on plain milk either but as hot choc it’s bearable. Just a thought.

    Use the staff hun, you know they care really. It’s gonna take a lot of fighting with yourself to stay there but remember that it’s perfectly normal and expected and you wanted to go there to get better. Remember the alternative…. It doesn’t bear thinking about really does it lovely. As for sectioning, they wouldn’t have a problem doing that given how you are and how long this has been going on. You know in your heart you would not be safe.

    Can I come see you? Love you xxxxxxx


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